My honey, my husband, used to be a truck driver and was gone all the time. I MEAN ALL the time. On the road for 2 or 3 weeks, he once had a job when he was gone for up to 6 weeks at a time. When he did come in off the road he was home for maybe 3 days, then off again. Now that I think of it when we first got married, 35 years ago, he was in the Navy and gone at times up to 6 months. I feel bad even hinting about that since we have many, many service people who have been away from family for so very long. Lord Jesus extra blessings on those. I was alone for a good share of our married life. I got through, even when I was being a single parent and when the trials of life hit, I was alone, or was I?
” I will never leave you or forsake you” God says in Deuteronomy 31:6 and in Joshua 1:5 Yes He was always with me if I felt it or not because His word says so. There were many times I did not feel His tender loving arms around me or any where near me for that matter. Did it mean He wasn’t there? Not to me it didn’t. He does not lie! Situations may not be the way I want it to be but that doesn’t mean it is not the will of the Lord. You see He has a plan for me , plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. (see Jeremiah 29:11) He knows what he is doing…..I just got to let him have control as I continue to seek him and draw near to him.
Why am I pondering on the past and all those times alone? Well for the past 15 months my honey has been off the road and at home. How the Lord directed us through that is another whole blog. In these 15 months we have grown closer than we have ever been. We have learned to mold together and just be together in harmony and even in discord, keeping our eyes on Jesus and getting through.
He has been gone for the past 10 days on a missions trip to the Dominican Republic. A trip where he shared the love of Jesus with people, praying with them and watching God heal their bodies and rebirth their lives. I have been home, alone….ah not so much alone. God has been with me every step of the way. Protected me when 4 separate cars in one day pulled out in front of me, guided me to be “running late” on 2 consecutive days so I was not involved in accidents that were just minutes ahead of me, and when I was being attacked in my thoughts “will he be the same” “will he be satisfied with our life” “will he want to come home”, God had perfect timing and my honey did a Face Time (he had tried several times before and it never went through) and reassured me that yes he had a life changing trip but he was still my honey! God was with me giving me scripture to strengthen me, comforting words when I cried, a tune to sing when I was overwhelmed. No I have not been alone, and will not be alone, for my God loves me and cares for me and is true to His word.
So how did I ever do it or get through the alone time? Through God’s grace and mercy, leaning on His everlasting arms. Because He loves me and I seek Him and I ask Him and He answers me. I read His word and meditate on it day and night, I pray to him and I cry out to Him, I sing to Him and about Him, work on my relationship with Him because I love Him.
How do you get through your alone time?