How ever did I do it?

My honey, my husband, used to be a truck driver and was gone all the time. I MEAN ALL the time. On the road for 2 or 3 weeks, he once had a job when he was gone for up to 6 weeks at a time. When he did come in off the road he was home for maybe 3 days, then off again. Now that I think of it when we first got married, 35 years ago, he was in the Navy and gone at times up to 6 months. I feel bad even hinting about that since we have many, many service people who have been away from family for so very long. Lord Jesus extra blessings on those.  I was alone for a good share of our married life. I got through, even when I was being a single parent and when the trials of life hit, I was alone, or was I?

” I will never leave you or forsake you” God says in Deuteronomy 31:6 and in Joshua 1:5 Yes He was always with me if I felt it or not because His word says so.  There were many times I did not feel His tender loving arms around me or any where near me for that matter. Did it mean He wasn’t there? Not to me it didn’t. He does not lie! Situations may not be the way I want it to be but that doesn’t mean it is not the will of the Lord. You see He has a plan for me ,  plans  to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. (see Jeremiah 29:11) He knows what he is doing…..I just got to let him have control as I continue to seek him and draw near to him.

Why am I pondering on the past and all those times alone? Well for the past 15 months my honey has been off the road and at home. How the Lord directed us through that is another whole blog. In these 15 months we  have grown closer than we have ever been. We have learned to mold together and just be together in harmony and even  in discord, keeping our eyes on Jesus and getting through.

He has been gone for the past 10 days on a missions trip to the Dominican Republic. A trip where he shared the love of Jesus with people, praying with them and watching God heal their bodies and rebirth their lives.  I have been home, alone….ah not so much alone. God has been with me every step of the way. Protected me when 4 separate cars in one day pulled out in front of me, guided me to be “running late” on 2 consecutive days so I was not involved in accidents that were  just minutes ahead of me, and when I was being attacked in my thoughts  “will he be the same” “will he be satisfied with our life” “will he want to come home”, God had perfect timing and my honey did a Face Time (he had tried several times before and it never went through)  and reassured me that yes he had a life changing trip but he was still my honey! God was with me giving me scripture to strengthen me, comforting words when I cried, a tune to sing when I was overwhelmed.  No I have not been alone, and will not be alone, for my God loves me and cares for me and is true to His word.

So how did I ever do it or get through the alone time?  Through God’s grace and mercy, leaning on His everlasting arms. Because He loves me and I seek Him and I ask Him and He answers me. I read His word and meditate on it day and night, I pray to him and I cry out to Him, I sing to Him and about Him, work on my relationship with Him because I love Him.

How do you get through your alone time?


New Beginnings

Hello there and welcome to my blog, a new experience for me. I hope that you decide to follow along on where I journey with this blogging.  For my first blog I want to just give you an insight to what I may be blogging about and to me, so that you can decide whether to follow or not, for we are all given choices.

First, I am not a great speller or great with grammar, there will most likely be mistakes, hopefully I will grow in this area and you can overlook these things as I grow. I sometimes use very basic daily life scenarios when sharing. sometimes I am too wordy and rabbit trail, I might sound like a Mom or even a silly old lady. But I have learned to be true to who I am.

Secondly, I am not a theologian or a great scholar, what I will be sharing is the Word of God as it is written in the Bible, I mainly use the NIV, and how and what God speaks to me through the power of the Holy Spirit. This is just who I am, a simple woman who loves and seeks the Lord. Who has a relationship with Him and listens for His voice and hears it, who wants to share what He says to me so that others can benefit from that. In whatever  way they allow it to happen.

Thirdly, I am a believer. I know what I believe and I stand firm in it, and will gladly share it with gentleness and respect. I will not argue about my beliefs, they are my beliefs and nothing and no one will take them from me. Now if I am wrong, I have a Heavenly Father who will show me and direct me in the right path, with love, gentleness and respect. With this statement I will flow on…….

“But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.” 1 Peter 3;15

So what do I believe and what is my hope in? I believe that God sent His son Jesus to die on the cross to forgive our sins. While he was here on the earth  he showed and taught people how we should act and be, loving towards all people, forgiving to all people, compassionate towards all. Attentive to Abba God’s words, obedient to His words, listening for guidance and instruction. Jesus was the “spittin” image of God, but under God’s authority, which Jesus chose to bow to in mind, body and spirit. Jesus did all this knowing that he was to endure excruciating pain and humiliation for you and me. People he never even met or knew.

I believe that Jesus could not have gone through this if God himself was not in him, I cannot imagine this type of love, commitment and strength.

I believe that God and Jesus loved us so much that on top of everything else they were concerned about leaving us alone so they gave us the Holy Spirit to comfort us, guide us in truth, to teach us, to remind us of everything Jesus taught. (John 14;26)  the Holy Spirit only speaks what he hears. He takes what is Jesus’ and making it know to us. ” He will bring glory to me by taking from what is mine and making it known to you. And what belongs to the Father is mine. That is why I said the Spirit will take from what is mine and make it know to you” John 16;14-15

So I believe that we are covered in love and in truth. We have the word of God to give us instruction no matter what the situation is and the Holy spirit to guide us.  We need to seek, knock and open. Yes it takes work from us, sometimes it is uncomfortable but if you want to know the answers you got to do what it takes to get them. I will tell you a secret here on my first blog…ready?  OK, God has been talking to me about doing this blog for about 2 years at least, I was scared, nervous, all the “what ifs” came at me, why start today?   This week my husband is on a missions trip. Stepping out in faith, watching peoples lives changed through his obedience to God, it is hot, uncomfortable and outside his (old) comfort zone. But to see people experience the love of Christ, be healed of their physical pain and free from their internal pain,  is well worth the uncomfortableness he is experiencing. So in watching him step out into obedience,I can step out, be obedient to God’s instruction and pour out these words for you to ponder.

Now you can make a decision whether to follow or not.  The choice is yours to make. Thanks for reading and as always be blessed!